Last night I attended my first Open Mic. While I didn’t speak it left me with so much to say. I was so moved not only by the words but by the nerve. There’s something surreal about the act of standing in front of people baring your soul, exposing your ‘places’, and bringing your truths to life.

It’s one thing to write of my truths. It still leaves my open however not truly on the forefront. I’m still behind the scenes creating the scenario, directing engagement, and eliciting emotion. Oh I can do that for days without hesitation. I could even apply that to business. I’ll talk to strangers about finding the right fit, the importance of investing, information based marketing – of yeah I got you covered! It’s crazy because it’s still me. I’m still the presenter. The spot light is still reflecting off my forehead, yet I got it. No worries. I evoke my model days engaging the crowd, making eye contact, getting animated to drive points home. Yes, I’m ALL over it.

Things change rapidly when it’s time to speak my truths from the pages of my works – talk about polar opposite.

I don’t truly know how to explain it. I do know I’m constantly looking for opportunities to challenge it. I thrive on those moments where I’ll have chance to speak the words my soul etched. I know that’s the final 101 life lesson. As I grow more comfortable with myself, my truths, there’s no greater gift to the universe than to pay it forward. Everyone lives with the details of their lives, the truths of their existence and what greater good than to step forward in solidarity saying “Hey, I’ve been there. Here are my truths.”


In all things I Leave You Love

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The Truth Is

I’m not looking for traditional love.

I don’t want any parts of all that day dreamy hot sex on a platter stuff. That’s the easy part. That can be coaxed out of your partner. You can find that anywhere. I’m sure you can pay someone to create the experience for you, if you fancy that. If you love yourself you can create love in others. Our natural instinct is to love, is to feel passionate about others, to yearn for body to body connections. Trust that’s OK. It can be everlasting. It’s a fruitful venture, for some. And others bear witness to toxic relationships where deception is at it’s foundation. The pretense of love and the intention of love is at the forefront. The give and take becomes take and taken.

Traditional love is more on emotion and feelings …

I’m looking for that nontraditional buy the block, support the youth, encourage human kindness but setting the example, pay it forward, uplifting others, residual & multiple income streams, investments for generations, clean eating mostly, best pizza seeking, fitness challenging, next lifetime, faith based, spiritual being type of love.

Everything else will come. All those other aspects of loyalty, devotion, compatibility, and soul stirring connectivity will be ever present.

As a compassionate being you can love anyone whether you love yourself or not. You just have to love the feel of loving. And I love that all encompassing best friend union of …….. building an empire.


And in All Things I Leave You Love

Bye Bye Birdie

Here’s the thing

Before you get up from the table, before you gather your things and yourself, before you turn on your heals to head to the door – there are several telling moments indicating you were no longer being served. There are always signs signaling your exit and for whatever reason you stay, in place, playing your position. You make the conscious decision to continue on the path unconsciously. Your passions become duties and responsibilities. Your interests become fleeting as the meaning of your presence is no longer apparent. Trust me you knew all along this day was forthcoming.

The truth – there’s nothing wrong with setting out on a new journey. There’s no harm in wanting to learn something new, to be great, and to ultimately experience the goodness in life. Just as there’s nothing disappointing about realizing those same experiences and journey’s have come to pass. You should encourage yourself to BE GREAT with every instance of exhale, inhale. And there’s no way to BE GREAT if you’re not pleased with your daily activities. Quite simplistically – if it becomes bitter not better, hateful not holistic, passive not passionate, then you’re no longer being served. Life is a partnership you engage purposely and if you find yourself in a place that no longer fills that need, then begin working on your exit strategy. Don’t wait until it becomes dreadful or begrudging. Recognize the signs. Accept when you’ve given the necessary for it to grow. Take action. It won’t be comfortable, but it will be comforting.

In all things I Leave You Love






If Only We Saw Ourselves

I’ve often wondered how those that see beauty fail to speak the language of love. Not that they should be skipping around in their rose-tinted glasses taking reality detours to avoid the strains and pains of living. No, not at all.

I’m focused on those able to rant about the feel of silk, the calmness of the night air, the intense colors of roses in the museum garden, and all the warmth of the waking sun. These folks speak negativity when referencing those keeping the grounds manicured and eye-pleasing. They lash out about the rain and the ticket they got for tailgating because they were really only riding “close” and if there weren’t so many children in the other car maybe they would’ve driven faster. They speak and drive reckless because children play on side streets after the monologue about video games turning them into zombies. They despise our educators and administrations but aren’t part of the process. They critique and criticize despite the facts then whip out their travel size white chalk because the truth is an attack on their person.

If but for a moment, let’s recognize that other person has at one time probably been us or a reflection of a love now lost. Think of all those having to experience our unfavorable shenanigans and all those we pulled in directly and indirectly to see us get to the other side of ignorance. Now apply that thought to them. Give them what was gifted so they to can blossom, too. 

In All Things I Leave You Love